Sunday, 22 May 2011
Friday, 20 May 2011
Tuesday, 17 May 2011
Life. Just plain ordinary busy hectic life. But some days it gets too much and I wake up feeling totally overwhelmed. Headaches start, I get short tempered and snarky with the people around me I love and they take the brunt of my vain attempts to do it all under my own strength, despite me having a wonderful husband who does so much to help and often tells me to stop worrying about things. So, today I'm off work, because I'm feeling a bit grotty and run down. But instead of vegging in front of the television I've decided to use some time to be a Mary, rather than a Martha and I'm already feeling a little uplifted. I'll be blogging more on My Martha, My Mary over the next few days as I really feel that God has given me a good talking to over the last couple of weeks and I'm starting to find my balance.
Wednesday, 11 May 2011
Tuesday, 10 May 2011
As a parent I could have reacted two ways. One is that I could have got angry that he continued to pursue something I'd originally said no to and punished him. Or, as I chose, I could have held back and allowed him to rise to the challenge and make his own discoveries.
I'm glad I did. With his perseverance and for being sensible, gathering the facts in, making sure the tariffs were correct, working out Internet bolt ons, researching through the current provider what his current text and talk usages were, he could compare differing offers and make an informed choice about which level of contract would suit him. He wasn't greedy, he didn't demand extra applications and he even made sure he stayed with the same network so calls between family remained free of charge.
The money issue itself was not my main concern. My children know we have limited budgets for some things, tight budgets for others, miracles in waiting for some things and variable budgets for others. We've tried over the years to be honest with them about money and spending and to search for good deals, not to be tempted into impulse buying, not to be sucked into the latest craze and to analyse whether they'll really use something. So to see my son actively and quite naturally using these criteria for obtaining something he desired was wonderful to see. It showed me he's growing up wisely, that he's thinking things through analytically before making decisions and it's confirming to me that he is listening to us when we try to advise him. As a parent it's uplifting to see your child make wise decisions, not just because a yes or no option has been put before them, but because they've taken an idea and developed it.
There are times he does things for me because I don't understand how to use them, or he explains how something is made or how it works. Usually with a big cheeky smile on his face and a roll of the eyes because my level of ability is at 'muppet' level. There are a lot of times he's just the boy he is, but I'm confident that as he grows, and as time goes on, I'll have to let go a little more each time and allow him to take hold of opportunities. This week it was just a mobile phone, but it won't be long before those choices become more complex and he'll be able to take life with both hands and get the best value out of it he can.
Oh, and their phones arrived yesterday.
Monday, 9 May 2011
I often think about why people just don't believe in Jesus and His resurrection. Look at all the cuckoo crazy stuff some people are passionate about. Diversity awareness and acceptance of all modern quirks and idiosyncrasies are drummed into us, so why are people so cautious and sceptical about God, Jesus and all things in the Bible? What are people REALLY afraid of? I'd like to think the real reason they're hesitant or dismissive is that they have the little what ifs floating around their head. What if people think I'm a loony believing in somebody that you can't see? What if evolution is the source and destructive force of the Earth? What's the point in me believing I'm going somewhere better if there's nowhere else? What if I'm not good enough? What if I'm beyond saving? What if I fail and muck things up? What if my family disown me or my friends tease me? So, here's my limited take on a sample of little, but obstructive what ifs that people have posed to me over the years when they've questioned my faith.
What if God really does exist? What if we're so restricted in our intelligence that we simply just can't comprehend the notion of omnipresence? When new species are found, we see them and accept they were always there, so why is the barrier of sight and proof so prevalent amongst us? What makes some of us blind to Him, and what opens the eyes of others?
What if God really did create man and woman? Scientists can now grow body parts from stem cells. We know they can do it. They can create a whole out of a part. So what stops us believing that God created a whole man from the parts of the world He'd already created before that? Who's to say that the vital components of a human being weren't already part of creation and that God just put them together?
What if Eve was really tempted and really did eat of the fruit and there really was a serpent possessed by Satan? If we're taking a risk on believing in God here and God is love, it stands that we have to accept the presence of an oppositional force - evil. How is that evil represented? If good and love are represented in the form of a being, then evil must be too. We know that good and evil exist. Doesn't it stand to reason that at the first sight of something good, evil will try to find a way in? We see Satan at the beginning of the Bible, he doesn't wait around before having a go. In the same way now, Satan uses deceit and lies to deceive people into believing God isn't real. Isn't it strange that Satan's existence itself is invisible, yet people are ready to believe someone can be possessed by Him, yet struggle to believe and accept that somebody can have the spirit of God living in them?